bedrest isn't the best..

argh.. am two weeks absent from work cuz am having a threatened abortion.. i have to take care of my baby tho that's wut am doing.. lots of meds.. argh.. can't even go out.. i wunna go to work.. or i wunna find another work.. haha.. miss him somtimes.. i hate him but i love him.. wutta.. all i have is my baby ayt now, so baby.. don't ever leave mommy huh.. haha..

lil angel

as of now, i am 14 to 15 weeks preggy and its not yet obvious.. haha.. people are actually teasing me if its for real.. well, it is.. its hard at 1st coz am just a teenage girl who wants to explore.. accidentaly it happened.. but i don't want to say this is a karma.. this baby is a blessing for me.. i know .. am just lucky coz my fam'ly and friends are very supportive.. they stayed wit' me.. didn't let me fall.. am so thankful to have them..


sometimes, i cry.. coz of wut happened to laqe.. didn't expect it.. but i hafta move on i know.. i don't have a bf now.. i don't even entertain suitors.. it makes me laugh everytime someone wants to court me even tho' he knew i am pregnant.. kinda weird.. am not yet ready..

am preparing.. i have to be.. my lil angel will come out soon.. ninongs and ninangs are ready too.. haha.. that's all..

my b-day

what happened yesterday??

well, it was my bday..
i woke up around 8am..[sanay na]
just ate my bfast[sphagetti] then go to bed again..
soundtrip.. feels like nothing special..
texted angel and she said, ndi daw cla makakapunta..
[i felt sad about it..] tho' she greeted me..
the only person who came is mika.. she bought a cake for me..
make kwentuhan with my mom and my bro's..[that's good]
my day has ended w/o jhen's txt[my friend]..
actually, i felt so sad about it.. i wunna cry but i can't..

i really doesn't have a good day but atleast, in my fam's and friend simple way, i learned to smile..

sad memory

whew.. when was the last time i update my blog??

i've been super busy with alots of things.. office, family.. and oh.. with my baby.. haha..
yea am gonna be a mom na.. and ofcourse, i have to be responsible na.. this baby is an angel in disguise.. i know somebody will criticize me but i don't care.. as long as i have a real friends and my family is there to support me.. it doesn't matter..

my bf died just a weeks ago and am so depressed.. ofcourse i love him eh.. i really dunno wut to do that time.. i wunna cry out loud but i couldn't.. i wunna shout.. but still i couldn't.. i think i'll never get over him.. he's diff.. haiz.. my baby is all i have..

single now.. single forever..

haha.. my god.. i didn't expect this chain.. am single for how many months now.. fuck.. before, being single makes me feel happy.. freedom is there.. i can do lots of things w/o any permission by anywho.. but now, idk.. i feel so sad.. its a valentine season and am alone.. i think am gonna be..

i was a player..
i was a bitch..
i was a tripper..

i think was will always be am..

i think a need a peremission now.. haha.. someone hu'll get mad everytime i flirt.. haiz.. i miss being love with sombody.. :(