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haiz.. 2 days la pxok.. hehe.. later am going to somewhere coz i have a date.. weepee.. haha.. wag co kea cputin.. try co lng.. haha.. kidding..

=> akala mo huh.. now, humahabol ka.. buti nga zeo.. i told you.. wag mo co hintayin mwalan ng gana.. ayan tuloy.. haha..

heart broken

heart broken.. fuck.. i duno wut happened.. this is the 1st time it happened to me.. someone dum me.. argh!! no one can beat me.. bulxit.. am so mad but i really like him.. i cried last night coz of t'at.. am i falling for him? no! no!

btw, last night.. "team bonding"..
laughtrip.. i love my team.. but sad.. our supervisor will set on other dept.. haiz.. but wen i was on my way back home.. kulig.. i feel asleep kxesa fx.. den wen i woke up.. someone was holdong my hand.. haha.. he's cute and kissable lips.. haha.. dpt una xia bababa.. but bumaba xia sa multi.. and he got my number.. haha.. he called me afterwards..

pain ☻○○○○ ☻ pain

am sad.. kinda in pain.. actually i don't have a big big prob nmn.. am just.. mad? nah ah.. pissed off maybe.. here it is.. i like someone.. i really like him.. after a couple of years now lng aco naging interested sa guy ng ganto.. i know he's not that prety guy like my ex's.. but pls don't judge him!! as a friend be happy for me.. grabe kxe!! lagi nlang looks batayan d2 sa mundo!! bulxit!! mxiado mataas tinging nyo sa sarili nyo!! cnu ba kau?? kung ndi lng luks pagbbatayan, ang pangit nyo!! get it? am sorry.. am just mad.. lam co mtagal co na kau friend.. but guys, my god!! u know how much am longing for this kind of feeling.. let me be happy nMn.. ok.. from now on, wla kau maririnig xkn na story 'bout t'at.. since i can't see any support from you.. its better to be alone.. you guys are so pretty kxe eh.. nakakahiya nMn senyo.. haiz.. infairness, napaiyak nyo co sa mga nalaman and narinig co.. haha..


[[ to you, why can't you just let me be happy? since is not hurting you.. remember? i let you.. i let you go.. i let you fly.. even though t kills me.. before.. ]]

[[to you, dba ikaw pinagssbihan co ng secrets co.. u know how happy i am right now dba? am happy coz there's someone who's willing to be with me.. and i know he's mine.. just mine.. ]]

[[to you,, ever since am yer bestfriend.. but after all the bad things you've done to me, am still yer bestfriend.. am just wondrin.. why don't you want me to be happy? are you my wut, enemy? or a so called friend who's passion is to put me down secretly?]]

[[ to you, am not a baby 'nymore.. am not a kid who wants to play everytime.. am tired of playing games lotsa times.. don't treat me like a fool.. ]]

just wunna be wit' ya boi..

ya know who ye are.. we can't be together.. but if there's a chance to be wit' ya.. i'll grab it.. mxiado ba co mtaas? nah ah.. is it possible to an angel like you to go down here and love a devil like me? haha.. can we just be together? even just a bit of time? ahuh.. ahuh..

waiting for ♥

got nothing to do.. waiting for the hr coz i'll get my mc today.. haiz.. i have kilig moment here din.. kxo.. iba religion nya.. in short.. angel xia devil aco.. haha.. wunna go to somewhere to relax.. haha.. wula na time for happenings.. siz's mizz ya all.. haiz.. ztah na life? nga pla.. those who wants to help poor kids.. kindly txt me to join to our org.. it started last month in pque.. let's help.. 09278534709.. those who just want to help..

i don't deserve you..

yer like an angel.. too glamorous fo' me.. haiz.. badly damn i can't love you.. can't tell you why.. yer too good fo' me.. u deserve someone else..

♥WER'E ALSO HUMAN.. NOT ROBOT..♥

i was with my ex last friday night after my work.. i went to their house coz her mom wants to see me.. he's back from the states.. he treats me like as if were still together.. i wondered why.. then i found out that his family did'nt know that we broke up.. (shocking) dunno what to do.. dunno what to say.. so i had to treat him like before.. sweet and wut so ever.. can't escape.. f*ck.. i told him " humanda ka xkn mamaya" he was just laughing.. damn it..

9:00 am (friday) start of my day.. clients are irate.. xit.. they're cursing.. and this is the most irritable and painful word iv'e heard last friday.. the old lady said.. "putang ina nyong lahat" then she released the call.. omg.. wuts wit' her.. am doin my best just to help her.. she's not listening.. a lady wit' no breeding.. i want to call her back but i can't.. i didn't take my 15min break.. buchita.. argh tlg.. yea wer'e just answering calls.. wer'e an agent.. but duh! they don't have any right to curse us.. we also human.. wer'e not robot.. if they only know.. may tinatawag na "BREEDING".. sama pa rin ng loob co.. haha.. but nweiz.. it doesn't matter.. xia nMn na highblood eh.. squater.. argh.. sorry huh.. sa nagbbasa nito.. kxe nMn.. argh tLg..

saturday.. (now) boredom strikes me.. day off co.. haha.. nafatal aco kahpon.. haha.. i miz my friends so much.. haiz..

bye bye..

This is for my peoples who just lost somebodyYour best friend, your baby, your man, or your ladyPut your hand way up highWe will never say bye (no, no, no)Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousinsThis is for my peoples who lost their grandmothersLift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them timesI didn't get it but you kept me in lineI didn't know why you didn't show up sometimesIt's something more than saying "I miss you"But when we talked tooAll them grown folk thingsSeparation bringsYou never let me know itYou never let it show becauseYou loved me and obviouslyThere's so much more left to sayIf you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]I never knew I could hurt like thisAnd everyday life goes on like"I wish I could talk to you for awhile""I wish I could find a way try not to cry"As time goes byAnd soon as you reach a better placeStill I'll give the whole world to see your faceAnd I'm right here next to youIt feels like you gone too soonThe hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've doneAnd you never got to see me back at number oneI wish that you were here to celebrate togetherI wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at nightWith the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tightI thought you were so strongThat you can make it through whateverIt's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebodyYour best friend, your baby, your man, or your ladyPut your hand way up highWe will never say bye (no, no, no)Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousinsThis is for my peoples who lost their grandfatherLift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

(chorus)

geez..

haiz.. its really hard to work.. you have to give yer hundred % dedication.. whew.. now i know how to value money.. its not everyday yer a millionaire.. its not everyday you'll get what you want.. you have to work for it.. (xit.. is dz me?)

enough for that.. another oil price hike.. diesel is already Php53.00.. bulxit.. its not funny 'nymore.. lots of tragedy.. and ds s d worst thing.. (idk how to spell a ryt word na) kakatxt!!

art of letting go..

haiz.. aun.. i cried last night.. ndi co tlg magets ung logic eh.. bulshit.. nweiz.. time to move on.. gnun tlg.. may nawwala.. may dumadating.. may umaalis.. pero minsan wla ng bumabalik.. haha.. thanks nlang for the mem'ries.. mwah.. take care coz i always care..



what's happening today?
dinala sister co sa hospital because she's bleeding.. nahiwa kxe ng basag na plate.. eeww.. how's she na kea? ndi kmi natuloy ni jhen sa binyag ng inaanak nmin coz signal #3 irr sa manila.. nxt wik nlang daw ung binyag.. and later, mom and i are going to the debut party der in chateu elizee..


dami broken hearted now.. haha.. can't find their true love.. haiz.. that's life.. but don't they know that what if.. they're meant to be? haha..

♥bye♥

idk how to react wit' dz kinda shit.. ol i can say is.. "relax".. i never knew i could hurt like dz.. i did my best to be one of a kind.. haiz.. i just have to go on other direction.. nothin's gud.. always like dz.. nothin's change.. dz is bulshit i know.. nweiz.. "thanks" huh.. smile.. breathe.. argh.. am mad.. really i am.. I AM.. i wna shout.. i wna cry.. i want to ask'em.. "ano gnwa co senyong mxma?!".. i've been good to you guys!!!!!msma pla mging mabuti.. haiz.. magsaya kau!! am down now.. but ndi aco hhingi ng tulong kht knino.. am not weak!! magsama sama pa kau!!be good huh.. i'll w8 for you der.. "in hell.." bye!

╗Ist day.. tiring day╗

jun 13, 2008..
nothing.. that's my 1st day of work.. i went to the office and ms. verns orient us.. she's so cool.. we tackled everythin' 'bout the company.. benefits, rules and regulation, and payroll.. that's the most important.. after that.. i went to mika's pad.. i did nothing there.. haha.. i fall asleep kxe.. haha.. and when i woke up.. my bf but now ex is already there at d bucks.. waiting for me.. he's kinda scared to mika.. idk why.. maybe because mika is so mataray..(thats what i hate 'bout her..) haha.. i forgot.. lake(my ex) brent(mika's bf) and i are friends.. before.. haha.. wut's d connection? haha..


and that's it.. we went home na.. i've watched news pa pala.. nothing new.. still 'bout oil price hike.. and 'bout rice and subsidy.. f*ck.. i hate our government..

♥fun break up♥

omg!
as in omg.. la lng.. haha.. am just happy.. coz am free.. lol.. pain inside.. darn♀ haha..
he's my friend before.. until we became good good friends then afterwards we became couple.. and now.. we're friends.. nlang.. ulit.. haha.. lol..
time is runnunn.. so i have to make the best out of it..
he wants to be free.. so i let him go.. i cried.. am still crying..
2days non-stop maybe not enough but i told him..
''i'll be alryt.. i'll be happy i know.. even without you.."
thats the best thing i've ever said.. i love him yea..
maybe u'd ask me why didn't i stop him..
well.. its not pride if you think that is.. its called "self respect"..

yer not for me.. so bye babyboy..

haiz.. nxa gmikan xia again.. he's not feeling wqell but still nagpunta xia..

wuts goin on? i know he's wit sara.. i can't blame sara.. if ever.. maybe she doesn't know that laque has a gf..

maybe he's too good for me nga.. am not that preety and sexy.. i think she deserves someone else.. yea yea.. he's not for me.. maybe that girl has alots of positive things.. maybe she pretty and sexy.. and tall.. haiz.. argh.. wake up jacee.. wut are u thinking of.. f*ck.. no matter wut.. i love you.. bye..

boredom strikes me irr..

am in pain now.. whew.. but i know i'll be ok.. promise.. haha.. idk wuts happenin in dz country.. oil price hike, rice crisis.. i dnt think there's a rice crisis.. our pres. is very intelligent.. she can do anything she wants w/o even thinking of what will gon' happen.. ahem.. i supposed to go to makati but its so hot.. someone stole my money.. bitch.. i wunna go out and do somethin'.. my gawd.. i dnt want to talk to lake coz he's a liar.. he's just tryin' to play wit' me.. bad bf.. i want to kick his ass.. but i love him.. i just can't do it.. amf.. that's all fo' now..